Note: I'm planning to post this yesterday morning. But I fell
asleep and forgot about it -_- This is a bunch of unimportant sentimental
things that you might not want to know or don't even care. And sorry for grammatical error, my English is getting rusty lately :(
So, the four of us have to separate. We got in to our own ways, we still keep in touch, of course. But MM, you never text me :| I feel like I should tap you in the forehead and get you back in reality that I also care about you and sometimes every now and then I desperate to know how you were doing. Ya, it's because of the protective side I got. So please, if you read this, text me more when you have time, okay? And when will you come back? Do you know between the four of us, you're the only one whose really hard to contact with -_- But part of it is my fault cause I never really interested in facebook or twitter thingy.
Halo
Hi
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Bonjour
Annyong
I'm back fellas. Hahahaha
Its been a long time since I write a long post. I don't know. Tonight, I just feel like to write something.
In case you're wondering about the title. It's 1.30 am right now. I can't sleep as usual. And I'm literally under stars. Not real stars. Last month, I paint the rooftop of my room with dark blue sky and put some glow in the dark stars. So it's Sleepless Night Under the Stars. Haha silly me
Actually I've wrote something on my phone. I'm planning to post it, but I change my mind. Don't ask why. Cause I just don't feel like it :p
It's been crazy lately. Lots of things happened. Big changes. Tough decisions. Rough days. Graduate. Yes, the four of us graduated. After lots and lots of studying (not that much) , and exams, we finally graduate. But our journey didn't end there, we still need to get in to a university.
University. It's really an exhausting thing for me. Lots of sweats. Lots of tears. I decide to get in to Universitas Pembangunan Nasional "Veteran" Jawa Timur. Majoring in Industrial Engineering (it sounds waaay much cooler in English haha). M, Airlangga University, majoring in pharmacy. B, Brawijaya University, major in psychology. MM, idk, I don't really get the place,it’s something related to oil and gas, I know I'm a bad friend -_- I feel like I need to explain a lot about this. But I'm too lazy to do that.
Annyong
I'm back fellas. Hahahaha
Its been a long time since I write a long post. I don't know. Tonight, I just feel like to write something.
In case you're wondering about the title. It's 1.30 am right now. I can't sleep as usual. And I'm literally under stars. Not real stars. Last month, I paint the rooftop of my room with dark blue sky and put some glow in the dark stars. So it's Sleepless Night Under the Stars. Haha silly me
Actually I've wrote something on my phone. I'm planning to post it, but I change my mind. Don't ask why. Cause I just don't feel like it :p
It's been crazy lately. Lots of things happened. Big changes. Tough decisions. Rough days. Graduate. Yes, the four of us graduated. After lots and lots of studying (not that much) , and exams, we finally graduate. But our journey didn't end there, we still need to get in to a university.
University. It's really an exhausting thing for me. Lots of sweats. Lots of tears. I decide to get in to Universitas Pembangunan Nasional "Veteran" Jawa Timur. Majoring in Industrial Engineering (it sounds waaay much cooler in English haha). M, Airlangga University, majoring in pharmacy. B, Brawijaya University, major in psychology. MM, idk, I don't really get the place,it’s something related to oil and gas, I know I'm a bad friend -_- I feel like I need to explain a lot about this. But I'm too lazy to do that.
So, the four of us have to separate. We got in to our own ways, we still keep in touch, of course. But MM, you never text me :| I feel like I should tap you in the forehead and get you back in reality that I also care about you and sometimes every now and then I desperate to know how you were doing. Ya, it's because of the protective side I got. So please, if you read this, text me more when you have time, okay? And when will you come back? Do you know between the four of us, you're the only one whose really hard to contact with -_- But part of it is my fault cause I never really interested in facebook or twitter thingy.
To M, B, MM:
Let's get together, four of us. I don't know. Go somewhere. Have fun. Talk. Hug. Laugh. Cry. Eat. Walk. Gossiping. I miss those times so bad that it's hard to breathe sometimes. I know, I'm overreacting as always :D but it really becomes a habit for the past 3 years. Wake up in the morning, go to school, meet you guys. Even though it's not always sweet, but times like this makes you forget about the bitter and try to hold on what’s left. See, I’m too dramatic to begin with haha
Let's get together, four of us. I don't know. Go somewhere. Have fun. Talk. Hug. Laugh. Cry. Eat. Walk. Gossiping. I miss those times so bad that it's hard to breathe sometimes. I know, I'm overreacting as always :D but it really becomes a habit for the past 3 years. Wake up in the morning, go to school, meet you guys. Even though it's not always sweet, but times like this makes you forget about the bitter and try to hold on what’s left. See, I’m too dramatic to begin with haha
Okay. Move on.
My college life has begun. It scares me to think on what's coming ahead. I'm afraid that I'm not strong enough. But it's normal right, afraid of the future?
My college life has begun. It scares me to think on what's coming ahead. I'm afraid that I'm not strong enough. But it's normal right, afraid of the future?
To my mom:
I'm sorry I can't be a dentist like my original plan. Though I badly wanted to be one. So I can take care of you cause you complains a lot about your sensitive teeth.
I'm sorry I can't be in Civil Engineering.
You always said that you wanted this and that kind of house. So I want to become an Architect.
I know my reasons a little bit childish. But truth be told, my dream is just to make you happy.
It really breaks my heart when I knew I didn't get in to state university. I cry so hard at night hoping no one knows, well I guess everyone knew now. I'm sorry cause I'm not even smart enough to be an Architect.
I'm sorry I can't be a dentist like my original plan. Though I badly wanted to be one. So I can take care of you cause you complains a lot about your sensitive teeth.
I'm sorry I can't be in Civil Engineering.
You always said that you wanted this and that kind of house. So I want to become an Architect.
I know my reasons a little bit childish. But truth be told, my dream is just to make you happy.
It really breaks my heart when I knew I didn't get in to state university. I cry so hard at night hoping no one knows, well I guess everyone knew now. I'm sorry cause I'm not even smart enough to be an Architect.
Sometimes I feel like I disappointed you. I know I shouldn't think
of that. I know you will still love me, support me and take care of me with all
your heart. I love you mom :)
I don't know how this post gets
sentimental -_-
You know when you can't sleep at night, and you can't help to think about life, somehow it makes you happy and sad at the same time, but you cry anyway? That's what I feel tonight.
You know when you can't sleep at night, and you can't help to think about life, somehow it makes you happy and sad at the same time, but you cry anyway? That's what I feel tonight.
To my iPod:
Thank you for standing by my side through my sleepless nights. I promise I'll take care of you better. I'll update the songs more often.
"I know I can't have forever, but the dream of forever is what I'm holding on to"
Thank you for standing by my side through my sleepless nights. I promise I'll take care of you better. I'll update the songs more often.
-R-
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